masih menjadi pertanyaan di benak ku, kenapa semesta mempertemukan kita di jalan takdir nya, kalau akhirnya takdirnya pula yang memisahkan kita? aku yang awal nya sudah yakin dengan jalan cerita kita, ternyata masih harus terkikis sedikit demi sedikit, untuk kehilangan diri ini, lagi. apakah kamu merasakan sayang dan rindu ini? apakah kamu merasakan sedih dan kecewa ini? apakah kamu tau ini sakit? ah, mungkin perasaan mu tak cukup untuk merasakan semua ini, aku minta maaf. memang benar, cinta yang hingga meneteskan air mata adalah cinta yang tidak pernah pura-pura, hati yang selalu mengerti juga akan lelah, rasa-rasanya sudah harus menerima semua jalan takdir, bahwa sudah bukan aku lagi yang hidup di masa mu sekarang, dan bukan aku lagi yang harus senang dengan adanya kamu di dunia ini. tidak ada yang perlu disalahkan, kita hanya dua manusia yang kebetulan bertemu ditengah jalan takdir, aku yang kebetulan datang, dikala kamu sedang kesepian, dan dekatku pun tak pernah kamu liha
You rest in the arms of angels, in a place of peace and love, watching over me, from the heaven above. I know somewhere among the stars and the angels, you are there holding my hand and loving me in spirit, this thought keeps me going, because, I know love is eternal even if the body isn't. I watched your last breath, I watched my life fade from your eyes, I rested my head on your chest, hoping to feel your heartbeat. Allah saw you getting tired, and a cure was not to be, so he puts his arms around you, and say “come to me”, with tearful eyes I watched you passed away. A golden heart stop beating, Your wings were ready, but my heart was not. Now, I have to remember you, for longer than I have known you, I know heaven must be beautiful right now, cause they got you.
You brings out the best part of my poetry, I have poured so much about you into words, but I hate to write about you like this. I miss you so much and that’s hurt my whole heart, I’m not sure if I’m missing what we are or what I hoped we could’ve been, All I know we both know all to well it had to be this way, or that’s what we should tell to ourselves. I’m scared, I’m scared that I finally realize that it wasn’t the things between us that changed, But it was us. I was forced to let go, I could probably let go if I wanted to, I could bury the thought of you, But the heart wants what it wants. Maybe I’m only meant to love you from afar, But I won’t ever stop writing about you, At least one of us has to keep us alive.
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